One of my electives this year is Sonic Arts Practices. It's a 5 week course and at the end of it we have to have made a piece. It can be in any format, it just has to relate to sound in some way. I was kind of stuck for an idea then the only thing that came to me was these 'Bits of Nothing' that I can't seem to stop writing... They're little bits of thoughts and imaginings that i would never dream of ever saying to anyone in person and they seem too personal to become lyrics in songs but I feel the need to get them out somehow and the internet seems to be the only place where I can do that and feel comfortable about it, I guess because of the semi-anonymity and the facelessness of it. I never let anyone read anything I've written while I'm present; I have to leave the room if I want someone to read my stuff and even then I feel uncomfortable. So I thought it would be kind of cool to make a text based piece where I get these feelings out in public but I have to find a way where it seems like it's actually possible for me to do it without totally freaking out. My idea is to select a few of the poems and play each of them through a separate speaker at the same time so that the words become unintelligible and the only way to make out individual poems is to go right up to the speaker and really listen to it. The idea I guess is that I have all of these confused and contradictory emotions that I'm trying to express and somewhere there would be a hidden speaker, maybe quieter than the others that was expressing the simplest and most honest representation of how I actually feel. A few days later I thought how much more powerful it would be conceptually and how much more uncomfortable it would be for me (which is kind of the point) if I was to present this as a live performance, recording myself speaking the poems and looping them in a live situation so that I built up the mass of sound one poem at a time. My tutor has responded positively to this idea and I'm terrified of my boyfriend attending this performance but he already knows I'm weird. I feel like this will be a really powerful thing personally for me to do and I hope that I come up with a half decent piece out of it as well.